Back to Myself

I will be wearing this dress, in WHITE, made with thin, hip hugging material to a wedding in November. Half of my high school class will be at this wedding. Me, and my hips, will be on alter in this white dress. My heart is racing and my palms are sweating just thinking about it. However, I must thank the dress and my crazy friend who is forcing me and nine other girls to wear it…yes, I typed NINE. Why am I thanking a dress, you ask? I am thanking a dress because it has forced me and my 37 inch hips to get off of our dimply butt and head to the gym.

As I type, my legs ache from Monday’s workout. My days are longer, since I am waking up at 4:45 to head to the gym, but it feels good. My diet has been filled with protein, healthy carbs and veggies – lots of veggies! I haven’t seen a change in my body yet but my attitude is better. I’ve said before that I beat myself up about my weight, lack of exercise and poor food choices but that has changed over the last two weeks. My morning workout encourages me to be healthy all day – mentally and physically. I am proud of myself for my efforts and I don’t spoil it with sweets. I find myself reaching for the almonds instead of a dollar for M&M’s. I guzzle water instead of Diet Coke. I’m not squeezing the skin on my thighs to see if it dimples. I am even attempting private Pilates training – tonight is my first session. I am enjoying this new “feel good about yourself” attitude.

So, thank you little white dress and thank you crazy best friend who would not want to squeeze into this dress either! THANK YOU for pushing me to return to my healthy lifestyle. I didn’t realize how much I missed it.

More on the Pilates training tomorrow…..